Though armies should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear;
though war should rise up against me, even then will I be confident.
The words above come from Psalm 27 - the traditional psalm that we read during the days of Elul. The author of the psalm tells us that despite the multitude of challenges we face in life, we should feel strong and unafraid because of God's presence in our lives. The psalm is a source of comfort for many, especially as we prepare to face God's judgment on Rosh HaShanah and Yom Kippur to account for our actions in the year that has passed.
It's been a long time since I believed in a God who judges, or a God who doles out punishments and rewards based on our deeds. Instead, I have internalized that sense of judgment, and I sit in judgment (sometimes harsh judgment) of myself.